dirty little secret

Ok, so remember what I said I was going to post something I'm very ashamed of?

Here it is.

In fact,

here I am.

These are two photos of me. This is how I look now.
(actually, this is how I looked two days ago, but you get the picture)


It hurts me to look at this. I haven't realized that this is how I am. But it is.
However, this is not final. Photographies remain the same over time, but their object doesn't. So this is like a "before". Now I have to work like hell for the "after" one.


I'd like to thank everyone who has helped me so far, through you comments, e-mails, experience sharing, advising, etc. This has given a strength I didn't have before, and I was always set to fail. Now I fail, I assume my mistakes, I try once more and I have people that encourage me to do it. Thank you so much, all of this means a lot to me. 


If you, yea YOU reading this post also need support feel free to ask me for help. I might not know all that much already, but sometimes just a word is all you need to make you strong.


TO THE "AFTER" PICTURE!