Day 4

again, today was a bad day.
I know I keep saying this.


Everything was going super well until I decided to smoke some pot.
And if you ever smoke pot you know it either makes you 
- LOSE YOUR APETTITE or 
- MAKES YOU SUPER HUNGRY.


Guess what happened.


Breakfast
- 2 slices of white bread with ham


From 3PM to 5PM
- 1 small pizza slice
- 1 hot dog with fries
- 1 coke can
- 1 slice of chocolate salame
- 2 cups of lemonade


Dinner
 - 1 chinese rol
 - a bit of rice
 - a bit of shrimp chop suoey
 - a bit of cow chop suoey
 - a slice of cake

KIDS, don't do drugs.

they'll make you fat.

I think I haven't started taking this serious yet. When I'm writing in my blog or reading e-mails from people who support me I feel really strong and I believe I can do it, and I want it so bad! But then when I'm in the real world things get a bit more complicated. 


But you know what?
I'M SICK OF THIS 
I've spent the last 4 days whinning cause I can't do this, can't do that. 
Escuse me, but fuck it. 
I'm stronger than this. I eat food, food is not supposed to eat me inside.




THIS HAS NOW BECAME REAL. (finally)
And to prove it, tomorrow I'll make a comitment by posting something I'm very ashamed of, but it's a way to make me stronger. If I don't post it, it's not cause I forgot. It's cause I'm ashamed. So make me post that.